Trust in God, in Self, and in Others- Tricky Business For Outliers

I believe this may be my most important blog!

Trust has always been one of the most challenging things for me. I think I understand why.

I was reading a book by Joyce Meyer, Get Your Hopes Up!, and in my mind raised the ugly head of doubt. I said to myself, hum, why? God has done so much for me and I truly believe and trust Him with everything and my life.

I read this section and the thought came to me- let me tell you what it was.

Trusting God, not yourself

As a child and a young person I questioned God why I struggled, in fact I trusted God and others more than myself. I saw my performance and abilities compared to others- not by my parents- but by others in school and other situations that kept telling me over and over again not to trust myself. In church I was suppose to memorize scripture  to please God and be a good christian, something that continues to be difficult for me. In school, not keeping up in math and not knowing right from left- feeling set apart and different. It always was so subtle because I have processing issues that are not visible and also being intelligent it always looked like it was a lack of effort on my part, not reaching my potential. I wish I had a dollar for every time I heard that. I could pay off my student loan and perhaps my mortgage! I had been conditioned to believe others knew better than me and simultaneously being told of course you can do it, just believe you can! Crazy!  I have been set up.

But God has done an amazing work in my life because I did trust and believe in Him. But always with this conflicting trust issues with others and how I looked to them. And in fact I still use many compensation strategies and techniques that do rely on others to use my abilities and strengths that God has given to me. But there is a shift now!

Truth is- God made me to trust Him in my weaknesses, to rely on Him first no matter what my issues are /were. He knows best! And no matter what people believe, judge, think of me it really doesn’t matter as much as I have been conditioned to think. I need to concentrate on being a person of excellence- doing my best and leaving the rest up to God. I am  not an island- no better, no worse than others. I can follow a life’s plan designed by my heavenly father that is one where I can enjoy life and feel my purpose is fulfilled without comparing myself with others.  He does send people into my life to partner with me to do the parts of my tasks that are difficult for me but I am to rely on God first, not them. And  I am loved, cherished and well thought of in my areas of strength. I can Trust myself because I Trust Him first and lead by the Holy Spirit.

I know God is no respecter of persons so if He has done this for me, He will do the same for you! His greatest gift is that He loves us and wants us to enjoy our lives, relationships, and love ourselves!

Proverbs 3:5-6

Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths.

A great song to go with this is by Nelson Hawk, Live Like You’re Loved!
 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_r47Xhkf20

When Rejected By Others There Is One True Thing…

As adopted children of God we have something that no rejection can diminish or take away that ensures our satisfaction of this life.

20160620_210914I have been reading a book and Bible study by Lysa TerKeurst,Uninvited, Living Loved When You Feel Less Than, Left Out , and Lonely, that was a loving gift from a dear friend.

Lately God has been letting experiences come into my life that remind me of the feelings of being on the outskirts of life even though I am fully involved with people who love me and support me. But in two areas those feelings have been challenged in major ways. One is my marriage which is now over and two is actually root of it all. My feelings of being not approved of and/ or accepted. These are  being challenged by my loving God.

Who is telling me something just the opposite, I am approved of, accepted and even celebrated over by Him, my heavenly Father.

Yes, we have all had experiences were we have been invisible, forgotten, dismissed, or flat out pushed out. Some of us more than others. I had loving parents, my physical needs were always met. I can say I never had an overtly abusive event happen to me but I perceived many of my life’s events as ones that placed an idea placed in my head that I was not enough. Where did it come from- I have an idea and we normally imagine a red being with horns and a pitchfork.

I had a gut feeling something was different about me and possibly wrong most of my life because I wasn’t like other people. I would see things differently. We all know how well that goes over with the human race, they get uncomfortable then try figure it out what is different then try to change it to fit into a mold of others.

Now I know I have been set apart for a reason to be different and God knew it all along but I didn’t know how to access that information. I had to go with what I had around me. Being raised in a Christian home was a great start but I was so distracted by my circumstances the words, God loves you, sounded more like a question than the answer.

God has led me to different resources to help me learn what He asks us to do by casting our cares on Him and He will keep our hearts in peace. He offers security and a sense of belonging no matter the circumstances.

He is more than enough connecting me ad you if you ask, to God the Father enabling us with His power through the Holy Spirit who now resides within our spirit. We believe it and accept then listen and follow His instructions. This is our part. Choosing to know that we are as Lysa TerKeurst so beautifully said it, living loved, knowing the fullness of God is more than enough to fill us up so there is no place in our spirit to accept the feelings of rejection as the truth and part of our identity. We may have those events in our lives to suggest that is who we are but our part is to turn down that opportunity and identify ourselves with who God says we are- set apart and fully loved by Him. He will give us our sense of security and love. What we get from this world in the way of relationships and our work responsibilities are a bonus. And when it goes south which many times it may. We do not, because we know we are covered.

What resources you say- I want those too!  Here the part of God’s good plan, Ephesians 2:10 that is individualized for each of us. We seek Him, read His words, praying first for Him to lead and guide us to what we need. He will- He also will! never leave us or abandon us! I have listed some scriptures that are a great starting place. When I read I keep something handy to take notes and except to connect!

Ephesians 1:4-5, 2:10, 3:14-19; Hebrews 13:5; Galatians 5; Psalms 23; Matthew 7:9-12, 11:29; Isaiah 61

A great song to listen to is -Matthew West, Mended.

Next Our response to those who reject us, especially injusticely, to protect us and our peace…..

The Paradox of The Creative Mind- Part Two…….

continuing…

Today if you are a creative person, you are still an enigma. You are a mysterious and rarely understood person who almost magically comes up with real and new things seemingly out of nothing. But you also understand there is a price you pay for that ability. The peace, purpose and health of your creative mind relies greatly on the environment and having those around you to guide and mentor you in order to learn how to live successfully.

In the creative community and professions there is a sense of instability because success and acceptance also relies on one being recognized and valued by society. This is how one may gain a feeling accomplishment. Many creative livelihoods  need to have a following of those who believe/appreciate/ admire their work. And many times Popular society is needed to bring creative works forward and showcase them, but popularity can be a fickled thing. It relies on likes and dislikes which change like the wind. Creative individuals have such great drive and passion to create those things envisioned/felt deep within themselves.  They want others to appreciate, understand and applaud them. So many times that which they seek is evasive.

And when we don’t have that affirmation, it can be very difficult and painful. And there are those who have the creative spirit that have squelched it because it is too difficult, but then have no peace still struggling with the character traits of a creative person that represent a very complex personality. So let’s examine this issue!

There are different ways of looking at personality types. I have included a chart of one such model. The creative personality is not one of them, but it is a collective of many personality traits, most likely a combination of the traditional four temperament types. Those who would qualify, as creative are not just artists, actors, dancers, writers but also scientists, inventors, entrepreneurs, chefs. We can use our creative abilities in almost any profession, but we will still have the traits which are listed out later that defines what I propose as a fifth temperament. There is no estimation of how many people possess this temperament, but my guess it is 10% to 15% which also happens to be the estimated percentage of those with learning disabilities and the estimated number of individuals who are right-brained. If we crossed reference some of these issues and traits, they seem to correlate to one another. I believe their is some clarity to be had here. So much as been defined as a negative or abnormal, that may not be the case. That connection will also be explored and discussed another time.

While researching I came across a man, Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, who has studied the creative personality for more than 30 years and he has written an article, The Creative Personality: Ten Paradoxical Traits of the Creative Personality, that gives a description of the creative personality that I can attest to as accurate as far as how it describes me, my family members and friends who demonstrate the same creative tendencies and traits. And much like the other temperaments there are positive and negative sides to personality traits, it is important to develop the positive side.

 It seemed like a full time job sometimes to manage so many traits and when it was the right time to use them. One really can’t do it on our own. I recognized I needed God and his strength, power and Holy Spirit to help me, or else I become overwhelmed. The creative personality can be a great burden to bear, but it also bring huge amounts of beauty and joy in life and to those around us. 

The article’s definition with all its complexity makes it is clear why we have had so much confusion in understanding ourselves and how others have difficulty  understanding us. They have a difficult time understanding  because one does’t fit in a standardize model. There is no battery of tests that  can be given by the educational system, psychologists, and employers that tell them we embody the creative spirit. The understanding begins here with self-awareness.

In the article Csikszentmihalyi states a definition with all the complexity that creates so much confusion in understanding one’s self.

The traits are as follows:

Creative people have a great deal of physical energy, but they’re also often quiet and at rest.

Creative people tend to be smart yet naive at the same time.

Creative people combine playfulness and discipline, or responsibility and irresponsibility.

Creative people alternate between imagination and fantasy, and a rooted sense of reality.

Creative people tend to be both extroverted and introverted.

Creative people are humble and proud at the same time.

Creative people, to an extent, escape rigid gender role stereotyping.

Creative people are both rebellious and conservative.

Most creative people are very passionate about their work, yet they can be extremely objective about it as well.

Creative people’s openness and sensitivity often exposes them to suffering and pain, yet also to great deal of enjoyment.

We are in a situation that reminds me of the story of the blind men and the elephant. Each man felt a different part African Elephant wallpaper wallpapers of the elephant and by the characteristics and features they felt they defined what they were experiencing.

That is how it is for me with others. I will meet people and be exhibiting particular traits, so that is how they believe I am, but not realizing the depth of my personality. The next time we meet I may be portraying an opposite trait. I have people who meet me when I am being extroverted, playful and energetic; they see me as a popular cheerleader type because that is what was required socially at that time. If they meet me while I am thoughtful, writing and introverted it would not register with them that I am being myself. They may also believe that I am bitchy or stuck up.  Or if they never see me that way they will continue to believe I am as they saw me previously. 

I believe without a complete understanding of myself, I have and can continue fall victim to a lot of confusion and also to misguided leadership. You can also doubt yourself and what you are. You know who you are and what you need, but when you explain it others they lose interest or try to understand, but many times they can’t because they are only seeing part of the elephant and they are pushing you to decide what part are you going to be, the extrovert or the introvert because you can’t be both it is unhealthy and beyond their comprehension. 

For years I  struggled in life with who I was. I once saw a flower growing out of a rock. At that time I felt the loneliness of the flower and in its isolation while it struggled to grow to become what it was meant to be. Now I see that rock as the presence of God in my life that I was growing out from. He was protecting me. He was my rock and foundation in a world I perceived as non-supportive, not in meanness, but in ignorance of who I was.

I didn’t have information I needed to learn how to be the best I could be, to find my way in a world that mislabeled/perceived me incorrectly. When I got ideas, drew or wrote I would get so excited and they didn’t now how to react. I didn’t know what to do. I think in my naivety I thought they all knew what to do and it was being kept from me. I was always on the look out for someone to guide me. That’s when I realized something about God.

God has been there the whole time, good and bad, hard and easy growing me into the person he meant for me to be. I can say he has lead me to a good place where I can be who I need to be who can resist to pressures of what others think I should be. I still struggle with the need for approval and acceptance.  It is an everyday commitment to stay in that good place and relationship with Jesus where there is peace and rest without judgment and I have access to unconditional love and his presence to support me to be the person he wants me to be.

God made us who we are for a reason and it is not to torture us. But when you have such a complex personality that doesn’t fit into an already established definition, you feel a little lost and forgotten.

He has a perfect plan for us. 

Thessalonians 1:

For not only has the Word concerning and from the Lord resounded forth from you unmistakably in Macedonia and Achaia, but everywhere the report has gone forth of your faith in God [of your [a]leaning of your whole personality on Him in complete trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness]. So we [find that we] never need to tell people anything [further about it]. (AMP)

God is good and he does not abandon us or the work that he starts in us nor should we. When we except Christ as our savior, he is fully capable to work with us to realize our potential whether we are recognized or valued by society and he direct us to a path to fulfill our desires to use our creative abilities and gives us rest and peace in our lives. When others don’t understand, He does and he is always there. We learn to understand the concept of God being there for us in the seasons of life when we may not feel we are getting anywhere with our endeavors.

Hebrews 13:5

Let your character or moral disposition be free from love of money [including greed, avarice, lust, and craving for earthly possessions] and be satisfied with your present [circumstances and with what you have]; for He [God] Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [Iwill] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not!] (AMP)

This personal relationship with God is true. I am not selling anything. My goal is to give hope. This is about learning to have a personal trust based relationship with Christ who loves us so much he sacrificed so much to establish it. We learn to trust Him and know he is with us always through the presence of the Holy Spirit within us. 

That why having a definition of this complicated personality is so exciting, and having a God who created me who is excited about all the things I am able to do. Even if I am not completely understood by others it is OK because He does! My acceptance and love comes from Him. We don’t have to change ourselves to please others. We can grow and develop as a person by His prompting and our obedience. 

The Paradox of The Creative Mind

When you  have a creative brain temperament your brain perceives the world in a different way, and in a  society that generally runs on logic, it is not unlike being in a different country. Another parallel example is the difference between how a person living without a relationship with Christ versus one who does and is living according to the principals of God’s Kingdom. Understanding one of these scenarios will help you understand living with a different perspective than those around you.
The creative mind is paradoxical in nature. Within the temperament definition it will show how complicated it is. It is necessary to understand yourself and those around you in order to gain awareness which leads to a better defined life and relationships. This also helps to gain self-confidence, purpose and peace.

The most common perspective in our society is a left brain perspective which is logical, sequential and many times it feels like they assume it is the only perspective. They are unaware of a viable alternative approach. Most organizational systems are structured in a left brain manner- these are systems like schools, churches, corporations, and some families,  which makes it very difficult when you are predominantly right brained. In fact it can create a great number of issues that can be insurmountable in one’s eyes if not prepared, mentored, and then having a understanding of the nature you possess which by the way is fantastic and wonderful made.

Psalm 139:14

I will confess and praise You for You are fearful and wonderful and for the awful wonder of my birth! Wonderful are Your works, and that my inner self knows right well.

Knowing God’s love and loving God in return, developing our relationship with him can be restore us  because of Christ’s sacrifice. We are empowered by Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit to become well-balanced even with all of our complexities. He leads and guides us when to use each part of our personality and as we develop the fruit of the spirit such as self-control from Galatians 5, it increases the ease of life. It is essential we grow in faith and strength in Christ to simply our lives. It is too easy to have too much going on in one’s mind then at the same time trying to adapt to a society that doesn’t think or process information in the same way we do.It is explained further in Matthew 11:28-30- Jesus tell us as we learn of Him and His ways things become as easier.

 

Why do I think God is prompting me to bring this up ? I believe when we read in the Bible He fully intends on individual’s strengths, gifts and talents are to be coordinated with others to complete tasks and work together like in the human body.  He gives us guidelines on how we can work  together like the body with very distinct and different approaches/roles.

Romans 12

4 For as in one physical body we have many parts (organs, members) and all of these parts do not have the same function or use,

5 So we, numerous as we are, are one body in Christ (the Messiah) and individually we are parts one of another [mutually dependent on one another].

6 Having gifts (faculties, talents, qualities) that differ according to the grace given us, let us use them: [He
whose gift is] prophecy, [let him prophesy] according to the proportion of his faith;

7 [He whose gift is] practical service, let him give himself to serving; he who teaches, to his teaching;

8 He who exhorts (encourages), to his exhortation; he who contributes, let him

prophesy] according to the proportion of his faith;

7 [He whose gift is] practical service, let him give himself to serving; he who teaches, to his teaching;

8 He who exhorts (encourages), to his exhortation; he who contributes, let him do it in simplicity and liberality; he who gives aid and superintends, with zeal and singleness of mind; he who does acts of mercy, with genuine cheerfulness and joyful eagerness.

9 [Let your] love be sincere (a real thing); hate what is evil [loathe all ungodliness, turn in horror from wickedness], but hold fast to that which is good. (AMP)

Communication- How the body is connected together!

We need to understand how to interact with those who don’t see things the way we do. In what way, well I am glad you asked! First, check in with the Holy Spirit for guidance and when we speak our thoughts many times need to be structured communication, a logical format. Also observe your audience finding out who they are and how they take in information which It is like interpreting our thoughts and ideas into another language that they will understand. Visual emotionally impacting stories are a powerful tool for communication. We learn how to speak in learning logical brain terminology and culture to integrate into it.

You say why it is so important? communication and understanding are essential in all relationships/ activities. Why am I suggesting those who have a creative brain take the figurative bull by the horns to adapt our communication to those around us is because of our creative nature we are able to easily see other’s points of view. We just need the vocabulary and a more formal structure-and a whole lot of analogies and metaphors. Of course I am also saying that without the strength and guidance of the Holy Spirit it is near to impossible.

If you are an eye you will not understand the job of the hand but you can conceptualize it and concede with grace to the importance of that job as well as your own. No one position is more important than another, without one another we all suffer in an less effective excellent performance and function.

To be continued…..!

Knowing Who We Are and How to Work Together in the Kingdom of God…

 

When you are an outlier, specifically a creative thinker,  knowing who you are in the Kingdom of God is a top priority of things to learn and know!

Knowing God’s love and loving God in return, developing our relationship with him can  restore us to the life He meant for us from the beginning because of Christ’s sacrifice. We are empowered by Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit to become well-balanced with all of our complexities. He leads and guides us how to use each part of our personality and as we develop the fruit of the spirit such as self-control from Galatians 5, it increases the ease of life. It is essential we grow in faith and strength in Christ to simplify our lives. It is too easy to have too much going on in one’s mind then at the same time trying to adapt to a society that doesn’t think or process information in the same way we do. It is explained further in Matthew 11:28-30- Jesus tell us as we learn of Him and His ways things become as easier.

Why do I think God is prompting me to bring this up ? I believe when we read in the Bible He fully intends on individual’s strengths, gifts and talents are to be coordinated with others to complete tasks and work together like in the human body.  He gives us guidelines on how we can work  together like the body with very distinct and different approaches/roles.

Romans 12

4 For as in one physical body we have many parts (organs, members) and all of these parts do not have the same function or use,

5 So we, numerous as we are, are one body in Christ (the Messiah) and individually we are parts one of another [mutually dependent on one another].

6 Having gifts (faculties, talents, qualities) that differ according to the grace given us, let us use them: [He whose gift is] prophecy, [let him prophesy] according to the proportion of his faith;

7 [He whose gift is] practical service, let him give himself to serving; he who teaches, to his teaching;

8 He who exhorts (encourages), to his exhortation; he who contributes, let him

prophesy] according to the proportion of his faith;

7 [He whose gift is] practical service, let him give himself to serving; he who teaches, to his teaching;

8 He who exhorts (encourages), to his exhortation; he who contributes, let him do it in simplicity and liberality; he who gives aid and superintends, with zeal and singleness of mind; he who does acts of mercy, with genuine cheerfulness and joyful eagerness.

9 [Let your] love be sincere (a real thing); hate what is evil [loathe all ungodliness, turn in horror from wickedness], but hold fast to that which is good. (AMP)

If you are an eye you will not understand the job of the hand but you can conceptualize it and concede with grace to the importance of that job as well as your own. No one position is more important than another, without one another we all suffer in an less effective excellent performance and function.    

Communication- How the body is connected together!

We need to understand how to interact with those who don’t see things the way we do. In what way, well I am glad you asked! First, check in with the Holy Spirit for guidance and when we speak our thoughts many times need to be structured communication, a logical format. Also observe your audience finding out who they are and how they take in information which It is like interpreting our thoughts and ideas into another language that they will understand. Visual emotionally impacting stories are a powerful tool for communication. We learn how to speak in learning logical brain terminology and culture to integrate into it.

You say why it is so important? communication and understanding are essential in all relationships/ activities. Why am I suggesting those who have a creative brain take the figurative bull by the horns to adapt our communication to those around us is because of our creative nature we are able to easily see other’s points of view. We just need the vocabulary and a more formal structure-and a whole lot of analogies and metaphors. Of course I am also saying that without the strength and guidance of the Holy Spirit it is near to impossible.

Why do I think God is prompting me to bring this up ?We read in the Bible He expects that an individual’s strengths, gifts and talents are to coordinate with others to complete tasks and work that need to done to establish His Kingdom on Earth and His promises kept for us to have a good life. The visual picture He uses is that are to work together like the human body.He gives us guidelines on how we can work  together  body even with very distinct and different approaches.

Adoption Proceedings to Become a Child of God…..

 

A  picture is worth a thousand words…

We start out being separated from God by Man’s desire to be in control of it’s own destiny. We begin in our humanness unaware of the struggle over us and our allegiance in the spiritual world around us. It is an eternal business that when ignored can bring grave consequences. We, our spirit, will exist for eternity. This would mean we accept the existence of a spiritual dimension where we need to assign our  allegiance.

Our beings are 3 parts which includes a spirit that craves spiritual fulfillment. But if one does accept this fact, they may try to quench this craving in other ways with the other parts of our being, soul and body. Some become distracted with their own needs, the allegiance question is not addressed before they leave this world. This should be avoided at all costs because the default setting is an eternity without God, but with the alternative, Satan who seeks to destroy all things created in God’s image-us.

 

1 Peter 5:8 Amplified Bible (AMP)

Be well balanced (temperate, sober of mind), be vigilant and cautious at all times; for that enemy of yours, the devil, roams around like a lion roaring [[a]in fierce hunger], seeking someone to seize upon and devour.

So we have decided to accept the gift of Salvation and join our lives with Christ. We have accepted the Spirit of the Living God in to our lives. He will reside in our spirit.

We then become a child of God with all its benefits and privileges which one needs to discover. We are adopted in to the family of God.

Ephesians 1:5 (AMP)

For He foreordained us (destined us, planned in love for us) to be adopted (revealed) as His own children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the purpose of His will [[a]because it pleased Him and was His kind intent]—

 If you were a person who was being adopted at an older age, you would have routines and life experiences before joining your new family. You come as you are into your new family and learn to adapt to a new situation. You can’t do it all at once, in fact, things kind of unfold as you get to know each other. As we develop a vertical relationship with God through Jesus Christ. Please read Romans Chapter 8. It is a chapter that talks about this process. 

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1 Thessalonians 5:23 

23 And may the God of peace Himself sanctify you through and through [separate you from profane things, make you pure and wholly consecrated to God]; and may your spirit and soul and body be preserved sound and complete [and found] blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah). (AMP)

 

 

WELCOME! 

You are accepted and loved into God’s Kingdom including a personal relationship with Him because you accepted Christ’s sacrifice on the cross and His resurrection. You have recognized and have chosen to believe that He is the Savior who frees us from sin/ separateness from God.

We are joint heirs with Him with God the Father!

See the next step in: Adoption Complete as a Child of God….

http://blog.emergingscholars.org/

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Adoption Complete as a Child of God…..

Always a timely subject! Deborah

outlierhope

We get to know God and who we are in this new family and relationship.

God has a whole new way of seeing and defining you that has nothing to do with who or how you were without Him! Just like joining a new family. The relationship grows when you spend time and effort on establishing it or it will not work out very well. He guides and mentors us in the process never leaving or forsaking us!

1 Thessalonians 5:23 

23 And may the God of peace Himself sanctify you through and through [separate you from profane things, make you pure and wholly consecrated to God]; and may your spirit and soul and body be preserved sound and complete [and found] blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah). (AMP)

We become stronger in our faith and belief that all things are possible…

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